Do you feel?

Do you ever feel like crying?
Crying until it all just spills out of you,
Like a cup someone just shattered,
Do you ever feel heavily disappointed?
Disappointed in the world,
In yourself for staying in it,

Do you ever?

Do you ever feel like the inside of you is nothing but nails?
Razor blades?
Broken glass?
Do you ever feel like every moment is just another gasp for air?
Like you are slowly drowning,
Momentarily keeping your head up,
To only have the waves crash over your face,
And push water into your lungs,

Do you even feel?

Do you ever want to swim in a river of lava?
Just to stop the burning feeling inside?
That intense fire that sits in your heart,
Scalding it from the inside till it is nothing but a burnt shell,
One that crumbles at the smallest touch,

Do you?

How about feeling like every part of you is worthless,
Do you ever feel worthless?
Like you have nothing to offer anyone,
That the world would be better off without you,
Since they never really wanted you anyway,

Do you ever feel this way?

Do you ever feel like every day is your own personal war?
Like you are fighting an enemy that cannot be defeated,
Or like you are running a race alone,
Trying with all your might to get to the finish line,
One that you can never see,
And never comes,

Do you ever?

Sometimes I do.

Robin L.A. Shaw